Anyway, just wanted to do a quick update. I'm on day 5 of being a lone wolf down here - my wife is up with her family while I study for the medical boards. Only 19 more to go.
So far temptations have not been that difficult - hardly at all. I have a feeling they will get harder. Satan is probably just waiting for me to let my guard down... which I guess is always the case. If I never let my guard down then attacking me doesn't do much good at all, right? I suppose that's the ongoing battle.
It's kind of been the perfect storm, or what would have been the perfect storm in the past: by myself all day with my computer, alone (most of the time) in my house under a lot of stress. And to top it off I'm in pain from a recent procedure I had done and just had a nasty 24 hour bug that kept me from getting much sleep.
But even in the midst of all this stuff, temptations haven't been a big issue. I am so grateful for that. I am also grateful for the knowledge that I know I can be ok for the next 19 days as long as I don't make any poor decisions to let my guard down. I know God can and will support my efforts as I continue to stay on the road He helped me find. For me there's no such thing as a relapse 'out of nowhere,' anymore. There would need to be a looong list of poor decisions and justifications that I will recognize early as long as I do what I should be doing.
Anyway, that's really about it. I'll throw in a few more updates over the next few weeks I'm sure. It helps me evaluate where I'm at when I sit and type about it.
And you thought I was gonna have some sweet recovery analogy having to do with Nutsy. I wish. Maybe next week.
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